Love is a many splendid thing!

This weekend just gone was our 10 year wedding anniversary. 

Wow how time flies. I can not believe we have been married for 10 years. What an achievement. But it's been the best years of my life! 

We have gone from young teenagers to adults on a journey of life and love. From travelling the world to having children to owning our own business. Times have been hard but we are so truly blessed. 

My husband is my best friend. He is my rock, my confidifant, the one who completes my soul! 

I am forever grateful of the beautiful life we have and every day is a blessing. 

Through the past 10 years, through the ups and downs the only stable thing was our love. 

How lucky am I that my hubby is so gorgeous! 

Thank you for loving me xxxx

Little boys and their toys.

My kids are just so fun. Yes they drive me mental so times but they are just the sweetest, funniest loving... You know the list goes on. 

They have found a way to play with our new puppy Rosie. They chase her. She loves it they giggle the whole time and they are outside so I can get things done. 

But sometimes it's nice to not do what you should do and go out and play with the kids. They teach us so much. They show us to look at the world differently. 

Tonight they set up thier trashies, yes since school started we were introduced to the world of little bits of plastic that looks like rubbish to collect. Anyway they set them all up tonight and took photos. Was so cute! 

Here are some they took. 

They even used the different filters :-) love their little bums. My moo and floobuckle! Xxx

Wow

I was just reading back on the posts I have written....I have grown and changed so much.

Its amazing to think you can have such strong convictions for them only to change. They changed because of the people I met, the books I have read, the things I have seen and the love I have felt. I still feel strongly about certain things but know how to word them better and be a little more open and understanding of others.

A big lesson is parenting. My boys have pushed all my buttons this week and continue to push them. I would have judged a mum for yelling at her kids but until you are in that situation you have no idea how you will react. Yes I have yelled at my boys, maybe a little too much, and its something I am trying to deal with and change. But now when I see mum struggling I don't make a quick  judgment I put myself in her shoes and give her a chance. Same goes for how they choose to parent. I am still a big believer in attachment parenting and will practice this again and still do. But I try not to invest so many feelings into how another family wish to raise their baby. If asked I would give them gentle advice but at the end of the day people will do what they want. you can only hope that once they know better they will do better.

So my "journey" has been a long hard road and I will continue along it for a long time with many bumps and cracks but many fun smooth times too.

Its nice to have you along for the ride :)

Ps. I finally managed to remove a popcorn kernel from my tooth toni9ght and its such a relief! Sorry just had to tell someone :P

Taking a break to find myself and real life.

So I decided that Facebook was being a tad too toxic for me. Looking at everyone else and thinking I should be doing that with my kids or why am I never invited, makes me feel so down and insignificant that I decided I have to limit myself.

Face book is awesome for keeping in touch, meeting new people and reading cool memes. But its shit for making us feel bad, seeing what all your friends or family are doing without you, making you feel inadequate with how you parent and becoming to overly involved and attached to people you have never actually met.

But most of the people who I have met through facebook and online are some of the most supportive and kind people I know. They have helped me through some pretty rough times and made me laugh! I know I will miss this contact with them as I try to wean myself off the addiction that is facebook but I klnow they will be there when I return. they might miss they might not but that's ok.

I am sick of fitness shit on facebook, mothers fighting with another, girls fishing for comments on how they are not fat, nastiness violence yadda yadda.
But I love the support, funny memes, kindness and generally "hanging out" with my friends.

I know this wont last long as I will miss them and I will cave and log back on but for now I am having a break.

So long for now facebook x

Life love and other things.

What a whirlwind year! Yes I know I have been so slack. I kinda use Facebook and a written diary to write and get things off my chest.

But I think this avenue will be helpful too.

So a quick rundown of our year so far!

We started the year with a trip of a lifetime. We hit the USA!
What an adventure. It was an amazing, exhausting, magician and hectic holiday. We spent 4 weeks exploring the most touristy places. Ha ha.
We started in LA. Very cool. I could easily live there.   Beautiful weather, gorgeous shopping and lots of fun oh and don't forget Hollywood. Yes I am a celebrity tragic but didn't get to see any :-(
We then headed to Anaheim to visit the happiest place on earth! 4 full days of Disney magic! I just adored it. The kids had the best time! I can't wait to get back to Disneyland. Definitely a place I could live in :-)

We then drove to San Diego. Hubby drove, definitely interesting :-p but we made it. We stayed in a beautiful hotel overlooking the ocean and sea world. Went to the zoo and Lego land.
From San Diego we headed across the country to Orlando! Yup told you I love disney! Spent 4 days at disney world staying at the Caribbean resort. Best time! We then changed hotels to the nickelodeon suites to do universal studios. Harry Potter world was magnificent! From Orlando we headed to NYC. Wow! Wow! Wow! Another place I could live. It was freezing and floobuckle cried a lot about how cold it was but we had a really great time.

We headed back to LA for the 2 days and then headed home.

This was our first proper family holiday. Having the businesses it impossible to get long lengths of time off. The holiday was chaotic but I wouldn't have it any other way!


We had been home for a few months when our littlest boy floobuckle was struck down with pneumonia :-( it was the scariest time. He spent 10 days in hospital. His whole right top ling was covered in the pneumonia. The nurses were amazing!

After that awful time we then had our baker quit which was really hard on us especially hubby. Spending so much time and money training someone up to then lose them was tough. But we knew his journey was to walk a different path.

We were lucky to find a wonderful new baker. He was with us for 6 weeks until he had an awful tragic accident. He passed away last week. We were all devastated. It's hit hubby hard. We are just so sad for his family. But we are so happy to have met him, he definitely touched our lives!

We welcomed a new puppy into our family too. Little Rosie is just adorable. 

So that's kinda our year in a nutshell!

We are both still dealing everyday with our mental illness it's hard but we try really hard to stay positive and fake it till we make it.

Can't wait to keep writing and getting my thoughts out!

Love and light Amber xxx