My second son was born on Tuesday the 3rd of November this year.....what a shock he was a boy! All pregnancy I really thought he was going to be a girl, maybe it was because I really wanted a little girl..the pigeon pair.
When he came out into this wonderful world and my Husband told me it was a boy I straight away said we have to try again.
Bonding With Flynn has been hard...as I still really wanted a girl...I know its not his fault and I love him with all my life but I cant shake this feeling.
99% of my friends now have a boy and a girl and I was told today another friend is pregnant with her 2nd a girl..she already has a boy...this makes me so sad and so insanely jealous.
We went shopping today and all the pretty girls I cant buy were taunting me! Saying ner ner you cant buy me! My husband says its silly to buy clothes for Flynn as we have so many form Myles...but he is is own person and shouldn't have to live in his brothers shadow right!
I am just so sad...I was so excited about buying pink things and tutus this year ...its my own fault though I should never had got my hopes up thinking it was a girl.
The disappointment is so heartbreaking as you feel so blessed to have this perfectly healthy baby but would give anything for them to be the opposite sex! I see friends who have lost babies have babies With special needs and think i am such a cow for thinking like this...but the pain wont leave untill i have a baby girl I think...which wont be for at least 2 years :(
Ok vent is over..its Christmas and I need to be happy right!
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